Your Wound is Incurable

January 5, 2010 at 6:10 am Leave a comment

“There’s nothing I can do, no drug I can give you, no exercise that will help you, nothing about diet that will make any difference. There is no clinical solution for your problem”.

These are the words spoken to me by the Cardiologist on call (Dr. Polly) in the hospital on Sept 24, 2009, the day after I went into the ER with some intense chest pains and shortness of breath. I had just finished an extensive cardiology workout where Dr. Polly (Saint Polly I affectionately call her) had ordered test after test to determine why I was in so much pain, and why (after an echocardiogram) the right side of my heart was so enlarged. Their conclusion?

Partial Anomalous Pulmonary Venous Return (PAPVR) – or Scimitar Syndrome with Atrial Septal Defect (hole between left and right sides) was the diagnosis. This is a rare (1-3 in 100,000) congenital defect where one of the veins from the lungs is (incorrectly) attached to the right side of the heart – thus feeding the NON-oxygenated side of the heart with a fresh supply of oxygenated blood – and the loop goes on.

I have always considered the following passage of scripture to be my “life scripture”. I received it sometime in 1982 or 1983 – not quite sure when – but the Lord was so all over me at the time that I cried for 4 or 5 hours. I had been reading Jeremiah – and I came across this:

Jeremiah 30:12-19.

“For thus says the LORD, ‘Your wound is incurable And your injury is serious. ‘There is no one to plead your cause; No healing for your sore, No recovery for you. ‘All your lovers have forgotten you, They do not seek you; For I have wounded you with the wound of an enemy, With the punishment of a cruel one, Because your iniquity is great And your sins are numerous. ‘Why do you cry out over your injury? Your pain is incurable. Because your iniquity is great And your sins are numerous, I have done these things to you. ‘Therefore all who devour you will be devoured; And all your adversaries, every one of them, will go into captivity; And those who plunder you will be for plunder, And all who prey upon you I will give for prey. ‘For I will restore you to health And I will heal you of your wounds,’ declares the LORD, ‘Because they have called you an outcast, saying: “It is Zion; no one cares for her.”

 “Thus says the LORD, ‘Behold, I will restore the fortunes of the tents of Jacob And have compassion on his dwelling places; And the city will be rebuilt on its ruin, And the palace will stand on its rightful place. ‘From them will proceed thanksgiving And the voice of those who celebrate; And I will multiply them and they will not be diminished; I will also honor them and they will not be insignificant.
 

When Dr Polly said what she said to me, I have to admit, it blew me away. Since I was in my 20’s – I had had people pray for me over and over and over – I had been to doctor after doctor in that last 20 years – and I had given up completely on the medical community (which was my employer more often than not in the last 20 years) – and no one could find anything wrong with me. My wife thought I was a hypochondriac – always thinking something was wrong when nothing was wrong. I think most people thought that about me. I would literally beat my chest and fall down on my knees begging the Lord to help me. (And you know what – He did – time and time again). I went to the Elders, I went to my friends, I went to some of the most anointed men and women in the Charismatic circle of believers – some of their names are well known. When they asked me what was wrong – I couldn’t tell them. They would pray for me, sometimes I even fell down under the power (of the Holy Spirit), but would get up the same old person. And do you know what – there was no healing, no recovery – just like the verse (and Dr. Polly) said. Now, I was approaching my 50th birthday. I had so spiritualized this verse – but now I was facing the reality that the Lord wasn’t just speaking to me spiritually, He was speaking to me in the natural. Wow – He had told me 25 years ago and I had just not gone deep enough with it to really get it. When the Lord says something to you – He so means it – He’s not flippant or careless with words !!!!!

THE FIX: Open heart surgery, reroute (actually extend) the errant vein into the left side of the heart and seal the hole between the two sides. This was accomplished on Dec 3, 2009 in Cincinnati using the daVinci robot as so capably operated by surgeon Dr. J. Michael – yes, also a saint, and also a worker of miracles (and that without a daily TV show).

I have to say my brief stays at St Francis Hospital in Indianapolis and Good Samaritan Hospital in Cincinnati was like being in the arms of Jesus. I dearly loved both nursing staffs (and all of the diagnostic people at St Francis). They took very good care of me.

11 days later – after open heart surgery – I went back to work and worked a 10 hour day. (which was a big mistake). Right now – I’m taking it a bit easier and going a day at a time. I have to admit, as I’m sitting there in the morning at my desk – I’ll lean back a little and take a deep breath and be amazed at what I’ve been missing for so long – maybe always in my life. In fact, there have been some moments in the last week or so that I can say, “I really feel GOOD”. I can’t remember feeling really GOOD in my whole life.

 

This is the start, this is your heart, this is the day you were born.

This is the sun, these are your lungs, this is the day you were born.

And I am always, always, always yours.

 

These are your scars, deep in your heart, this is the place you were born.

And this is the hole where most of your soul comes ripping out

From the places you’ve been torn

 

Hallelujah, I’m caving in. Hallelujah, I’m in love again.

Hallelujah, I’m a wretched man. Hallelujah, every breath is a second chance.

 

(Always – Switchfoot – Release date 11/10/2009 –

I heard this the first time two days after I got home from surgery)

 

In the next few posts, I’d like to share out of all of this some of the revelations that have come to me. I have to say that the Lord has been with me in a way that I can even feel His presence, and at times I’ve even been able to hear Him speak quite clearly.

 

 

 


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